Do or Die

I cant take anymore of this, now its do or die.
Its like a nightmare that keeps haunting me.
I gotta be the one to leave before its too late.
I've been dealing with it for so long, now its do or die.
The reasons behind it no one will ever understand.
Nobody knows the pain I went through,
but for the better of me I have to make this choice.
Ive always put you first and look at me now.
I’m searching for myself and cant find me now.
Its all because of you so, now its do or die for me.
Where did I leave myself, how far behind?
Now I’m dealing with a stranger.
I put your life ahead of mine.
I'm sorry, but my life is more important to me than yours.
You might see it as being selfish, but now its do or die.
When you love someone so much you forget to put yourself first.
Guess what I realized I need myself more than I need you.
The agony that I felt was just too much and left me feeling in desperation.
Now I can see so clearly.
What was blurring my vision?
Maybe it was that pedestal I placed you on and I forgot who I was.
Believing that all the pain you caused me was for my own good.
I was blinded by the love, then the pain kept coming back.
Now its do or die.
I’m not ready to lose myself so I must do or die.
I must make a better choice for myself before it’s too late.
I don't want to put myself to rest.
I’m not willing to say goodbye to me, so this time I’m saying goodbye to you.
~Daze